Yes, I'm useless!! *fucking useless!

从小我都是个超级害羞的女生。见到陌生人都会在发抖。更何况很他们聊天？到现在为止我还是一样，一直很想克服可是一次又一次的失败。很没用吧？从毕业出来的第一份工就是朋友介绍也一起工作所以都没什么。直到到妈咪公司做，我更没接触到其他的陌生人。虽然都去过当兵可是对于不熟惜的人，我依然一样静静的。每一次出来工作都会有很要好的朋友一起，因为这样我才不感到害怕。其实我就只做了两天的晚上工而已，其实自己也接受不到。一直一直的在逼自己跟客人聊天，可是总是找不到话题。就会静静的呆在那听他们聊天。有尝试过替朋友做一天的freelance，就呆呆的一个人坐在那。没用勇气的开口。朋友陆陆续续都有叫我顶她，可能因为生病或什么的。我却一直一直的找借口来推掉。其实是自己在逃避。我知道自己应该要去面对了，可是没人知道这种压力。就连你也只会说我一直在逃避。今天跟eone出来我真的不止吃东西而已，我有很努力的在找工，打电话。可是你却说我找找下就去吃东西，吹水而已。对于你来说这根本就是小问题可是对我这个没用的人，真是个大问题，大压力。大到甚至于睡不着。每天的每天其实我都有很多话想告诉你，可是我都不敢。你，真的好凶。凶到我连哭也得躲起来。其实我只想找份靠近你家的工，稳稳当当的收入，可以足够我供车和用就好了。你，了解吗？？？

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Sorry Dar..

我好像闯祸了。T^T

今天是想说去The Mines吃东西和逛逛而已，并没想要打扰你工作因为知道你老板并不是很喜欢看到我在你店出现。

可是刚巧的坐下不久你老板既然回来了。

我看到他第一个反应已经是走人了可是还是免不了你被念。对不起！ T^T

我想以后也不要常在那出现好了。

还蛮对不起你的。T^T

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16／01／12

上星期我的他带了我去Pavilion血拼。 xD

那是我人生第一次买的那么贵吧？

就只是一双球鞋，三件衣和一条短裤就已经花了接近六百块。

可能是因为没买过名牌所以有觉得不值得。

可是达也说的蛮有道理，贵的东西自然就有它的quality。

Hmm, 还是得谢谢我的他！ =）

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害怕

12/01/12 04:07am

从没试过被男朋友遗留在后尾。

他在前面走着走着，越走越远也不回头望一望走在后尾的女朋友是否跟得上。

根本不敢东看西望，我怕看到他同事的眼神在问你们是在吵架吗？

为什么就小小的问题也要冷战？

难道有这必要吗？

为什么我就不能像别的女生将会被哄无论是错是对？

我已经道歉了，那还不够吗？

我很怕你，我真的很怕你。

每天的每天我都在想我将说话会令你不爽吗？

我那样说话你会发脾气吗？

有时候我会觉得是种恐惧。

我很害怕。

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Useless

Felt myself very useless.. =(

Come out work ady almost 3 years, no saving at all and now no work..

I didn't even know what am I interested on and what job should I find after cny..

Just now mummy ask, 'do you have extra money buy cny clothes?'

Actually I got no more extra money, if got extra money also save it to pump my car oil..

But I answer her 'Nvm, I got..'

She was like 'Huh?! You no working how come you got money?'

I said, 'Got la, no worries..'

I got 'no face' to ask money from her cause she's now is helping my pay my car installment..

I know she's very sayang me and scare I got no money use but 'Mummy, I really got 'no face' to take it anymore.. Sorry mummy!'

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♥

Yes Dar, I felt it!

I Love You! <3

My man, "Gary Yap"

Hmm, such a long time no update my blog? =)
At first I thought no people will view my blog cause I'm just simply write it out to express my feelings..
My dear and babe were viewed my blog and advise me, support me...
Yea, the previous topic really make me sad and make me mad.. hahaxD
but then it's a pass.. =)
Still a long long way in front of me and someone will walk with me too! <3
21'11'11 - The day that we belong together! <3
I didn't ever expect that we will couple..
how curious is our life huh? =)
We know each other about few months dy actually..
You dated me twice before, but I also rejected.. hahaxD
The third time you dated me is before I went to Singapore Trip..
You dated me to sing K and I was onz! *got people treat, who don't want? hahahahahaxD 'jkjk'*
That day I went sing K with my dear Eone, YOU, and your friends!
Both of us was freaking excited that night cause we ady long time no sing k and planning to go after our Singapore Trip.. =)
The next morning we're going to Singapore...
The 3 days I'm at Singapore, you also whatsapp me and find me chat..
The first and second day I was insomnia, and you willing whatsapp with me until midnight and at last you fell asleep.. =)
That time you knew my bf ignore me, and I was very-the-upset...
You can really make me smile thru the phone! <3
You advise me, telling me what I need to do, and support me..
Maybe because of your caring, I'm fall on you..
People will think I'm "flower heart" huh?
No, I'm NOT! I'm using my true heart to treat every relationship!
I'm just a simple and ordinary girl..
I'm just finding the one who really love me, care me, and treat me good! <3
Although we have only 11 days together, but I felt your love,
I felt your caring! <3
You accompanies me every single night, hug me tightly every night..
I can really felt your love my dar! <3
I'm just hope that we can really last longer and enjoy our life together! <3
Love you Dar! <3